ooh..

did you ever know?
that i had mine on you...

(who is the "you" there, rahasia. nggak ada yang tau kecuali aku.. kalian nggak akan ngira.)

mbakno ajak aku ke jepang dong, aku lagi bosen disini..

mbul lagi rusuh ni.
lihatlah mukaku dan kau akan tau betapa rusuhnya aku sekarang ini.

maksudnya rusuh tu aku lagi untouchable.
no one can reach me out there.
entahlah..

merasa tidak seharusnya seperti ini.
tapi gimana ya?
wong aku memang jadi tidak nyaman..

whoaaa kembalikan aku ke posisi semula!!!

kalo kayak gini terus mah namanya nge-repres..
dan kalo nge-repres itu yang bakal nongol ya malah yang sebaliknya..
jadi maksudnya mau bertahan di dalam hati berusaha memperlihatkan kalo aku baik-baik aja, ya malah bakal keliatan tambah ga tahannya..
trus musti gimana dong?
ngomong?
ga tega..
belum siap mental..
takut melihat hasilnya nanti..
tapi sudah ga tahan..

aku harus berpikir lagi..

kadang jujur itu emang sakit banget,
tapi aku ga mau boong,
jadi suatu saat aku pasti bakal jujur.
dan setelah itu aku nggak tau apa yang akan terjadi..

aku nggak mengharapkan apa-apa, sumpah deh!
aku malah berharap aku nggak dikasih apa-apa, biar nggak ada beban di dalem sini.
(baca: hati)
aku berusaha sebiasa mungkin.
aku ngeluarin semua dari aku, nggak ada yang aku tutup-tutupin.
biar sadar, ya aku kayak gini, suka ato enggak.

berharap itu terjadi,
tapi kok ya nggak terjadi-terjadi...

mungkin bener kata vidya,
aku musti bersenang-senang, mungkin sama komunitasku yang lain.
i'll try..

music is my boyfriend.
berharap bisa nge-jamm secepatnya sehingga bisa lupa sama hal-hal yang ga penting.
amien!

oiya, aku juga pengen potong poni nanti.
masih niat mo manjangin rambut, tapi tetep mo potong poni.
buang sial.
yang jelek-jelek pergi deh!
(kayak jerawat contohnya, hehehe)

udah ah, nanti lanjut lagi!
di jakarta maksudnya..

weekend there, ouh i love it..
busway i'm coming..
baim, semoga besok ketemu disana, hahaha...
(baim naek busway.. ngayal...)
yowes, nek ngono..
mas, joe, siapa tau besok aku kesasar dipaketin ke miami!
(hoalaaah.. iki meneh.. ra rupo ra mbentuk tekan miami...)

sudah ah!

eyes on me

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me

Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer
[ these lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper

How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if your're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

HURT

Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
But I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
'Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, ooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself..
By hurting you